Good Greif!

How many times have I said that or heard that phrase?  Lots!  Well there is such a thing. Going through the process SUCKS!  But I know that as I go through it I will be stronger and more stable on my feet.  However, I have found that when tragedy strikes, whether I know them or not, it is more intense feeling of sorrow for the family.  A sweet friend of mine lost her grandson two days ago and I reached out to her in a message to let her know I was thinking of her.  She reached back out to me and asked how I did this.  There are so many similarities between the two.  He and Jared were both 17, both rising Seniors, and both stand out athletes.  I know Jared was there to welcome him into Heaven.
I was so extremely honest with my friend....I don't do it some days.  It will get worse before it begins to get better.  Together we will walk through their Senior year and mourn what should have been.
I think I am on the upward climb, although I do fall backwards occasionally.  I finished my book last night and feel good about things.  I know that I acknowledge Jared's death, and I acknowledge he is not returning.  THAT is the hard part.  However, I also learned that it is ok to continue to have him in my daily life.  It is ok to say this meal is in honor of Jared.  It is ok to celebrate his birthday.  It is ok to acknowledge him in a special way at the Holidays.  Good Grief!  I hope I am moving on from crying tears of pain each time I think of Jared to tears of joy.  Can't promise they will be every time but joyfull tears are starting to fall.  I know my friend will struggle for as she and her grandson had such a special bond.  But I know her faith and friends will be there to carry her through.  Another beautiful Angel got his wings.  Boy are we lucky to have so many Angels around us.

Angels Among Us - Alabama