Yes it is true. I find so much peace in the love I have for Jared. When Jared told me one night when I was really down that his Grandma X was crazy she didn't know what she was talking about when she said I was a horrible mom, I asked him why he did that. He told me I was the best mom because I was always there to support what he wanted and what was best. He said Grandma X was just there to buy his love and get him away from me. It warmed my heart that he had her figured out. He also was a normal teen and used it to his advantage. He told her he "needed" something and she would send him hundreds of dollars to show her "love". I don't much care because he had it figured out.
Once, Grandma and Grandpa X came to visit in Tennessee. .. can't remember exactly why but they were there. They came to a basketball game and I was sat with them. Not because I liked them, but because I wanted Jared to know I loved him enough to be kind. His fifth grade year the basketball team made the championship to the surprise of everyone. .. and it was Dad's visitation weekend.
Dad agreed to swap but Grandma X refused so they drove down and watched the night game. .. made him leave his celebration party early and drive all the way back ( 6 hours) with them. Was this in Jared's best interest? I don't think having a sleepy driver behind the wheel is best, but that is my opinion.
Over the years continued B.S. happened and I found peace in the love I had for Jared. I really had, have, much more love for Jared, than discontent for my ex in-laws. I appreciate the friends, true friends, I have that let me know of things going on. Like when funerals are planned without telling the mother of the deceased, when ex in-laws contact them about suing me for custody of Jared's remains, and when crazy posts take place on social media. Like the one referencing me falling in a hole and getting buried alive. .. or the one calling me a devil because I didn't do things the way they thought they should have been done, or the latest one posted. I don't let the posts bother me. .. in fact I am somewhat entertained by them.
It is a true shame that keeping up appearances are more important than your family. Here is a fact that will be proven. I was not yet divorced before child two was conceived. In fact my divorce was not final because Dan didn't sign the papers until November and the second child was born in March. The judge granted our divorce in July!
Today has been an emotional one for an unknown reason but I have found so much peace today knowing the love Jared and I shared and continue to share is far stronger and larger in amount than anything else.
Let your children know how special they are to you everyday. Tell your parents how much you appreciate them. Love your friends and family and enjoy every moment of life.
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