Continuing To Deal With Stuff

There are so many things to deal with that it almost opens up wounds again.  Will I, Should I, let someone else handle them?  NO.  It is my issues and quite honestly I know I must work through them as part of the healing process.
Last week I had to call the Social Security Administration I assumed it was to verify why the Survivor Benefits Jared received were being returned.  But nope, they just needed to verify he was deceased.  REALLY?  OMG  So today I must take a copy of his death certificate to the office and update his phone number and address (even though they called me and sent me a letter)  Government work at its' best I suppose.  I find it somewhat disturbing and amusing that I need to update HIS phone number and address.
I think the World today lacks common sense and in times like this it is verified.
I also have another difficult task this week.  I hope I can get through it today, but no promises.  I did however promise to have it resolved by Friday.  I must take care of shutting off his cell phone.  I have so many emotions with this.  This is so stupid to let this bother me but it does.  He isn't coming back and won't need it. He didn't take it to heaven with him so I could talk to him.  Instead he laid it next to his final letter for me to read the emails and text messages he had saved.  I have so many emotions because my our last night together I was looking for a new phone because I am eligible for an upgrade at this point.  My battery is going to junk and doesn't hold a charge the way it should.  So what do I do?  He told me you need a phone like mine mom.  Then he left it for me.  It is only a couple months old so why not just keep it and transfer my number to it?  What do I do?
I also still have an entire walk in closet to deal with and a bathroom.  I am pretty confident that will not be dealt with today or this week.

His friends are heading back to school this week in Tennessee and a couple of weeks here and it is difficult.  I want him to be going back to school.  I want to be bitching about tuition, school supplies, fees, all the usual stuff.  But I am not.

The kids in Tennessee are pushing hard with the campaign of YOU ARE A KEEPER.  Teams are jumping on board and taking pictures we plan on using in posters for a National Campaign.  It was so awesome to get a picture last night of signs that had been made up to be used in a picture today.  A tear of happiness fell down my cheek when I saw it.

I watch the "Likes" come in on Jared's Keepers Foundation Facebook and I continue to be amazed at how far we are reaching.  Literally we are reaching around the World.  Just as this blog has.

I must go for now I have to wipe the tears, and take this bull by the horns and get this stuff behind me.