Friday, June 20, 2014

St Croix Get to Know Jared

My message from last night: NOTES. BREATH BE STRONG ( written on top of each page)
Thank you all for being here tonight. Rich and I would like to say, from the bottom of our hearts, how much we appreciate everything and how impressed we are with the teens here who quickly jumped in and needed to help us - most of you don't even know us. It takes a lot of courage in our book, to pick up the phone to call, to send a message, our to stop by to see us when you are your age. Everyone here at Good Hope County Day, the soccer community as well as our island friends - thank you.
I would like to talk to the teens for a few moments. You have and will go through some difficult times. That is normal and a part of life. It is also important to remember there are people who understand. Your parents, ministers, teachers, and coaches are there for you. When you are in pain, when you are scared, when you are afraid, and even when you are happy, reach out and share these moments. Sometimes as parents we seem to brush off things that you tell us. That is because we have hindsight. What you are feeling many times us just a pebble in your path. What we forget is that to you It feels like a St Croix sized pot hole. Now I want you to understand a bit about Jared Martin. When he was just two his dad and I separated and divorced. Jared saw and heard many terrible things and became angry and violent. By the end of his terrible two's I didn't have a figurine left in the house. Anger and violence is something his father struggled with as well. From the age of three Jared saw a counselor off and on when needed. He learned how to cope with his anger and one of those tools was soccer. Like many parents I was drafted as his coach. I made the decision of putting Jared in the goal box to take his aggression and anger out on the ball. I bribed Jared. I told him if he didn't let any balls in the goal I would buy him ice cream. Needless to say Jared got lots of ice cream and I looked for a second job. But most importantly he took his aggression out on the ball and NOT another person. When Jared was in 3rd grade I felt it important that he learned to be coached by someone other than me. At his first game his team mom and coaches wife came up to me to tell me how she had told Jared he was really good at soccer and be replied, "thanks my mom taught me everything I know."
Flash forward to his 8th grade year. King of the Middle School. Unfortunately, less than a month into the year his father took his life. Jared's father was a police chief in a small Illinois town and it turned into a media circus. News crews, cameras, etc. As you can imagine this was and had continued to be hard for Jared to process. Jared friends quickly rallied around him and within 24 hours of returning home he was on the soccer field to help him cope. In the spring the team was in the District Tournament where they would face their #1 rival Dickson County. There was a bit of history with those two teams. You see we had played them a couple of times earlier and lost. But one particular game we had a situation where the whistle blew and Jared was faced with a PK (penalty kick) Jared stopped that ball. Then the whistle blew again for another shot and again and again. Jared stopped all four shots. Later I learned the ref had told him he was too good. We had a very quiet coach who rarely yelled or got upset and made sure every child got on the field and all of a sudden he is getting flashed with a red card. Jared is hollering it is ok coach I got this. We learned that the ref on the field was the father of the kid who kept getting the PK shots. Now it is time to play them for the championship. Jared played all four games that day and not one ball went in. This meant for the first time in the history of the men's program at the Middle or High School they brought home the hardware. Jared was also named to the all tournament team. After all the clean up my stinky, sweaty, and very muddy keeper came up to me and said, "so you going to take me for ice cream? " yes I did. .....a large M&M Blast from Sonic.
This morning a friend of mine posted an article about understanding suicide. It explained how suicide is a desire to survive. It gave the example of how on 9/11 we watched people jump from those top floors to survive. We didn't think about them committing suicide or they were cowards or they were selfish but rather how they were just trying to survive. Jared was just trying to survive and be Jared.
I am convinced that Jared would have been a politician or ambassador of some sort, After all look around at all of you here tonight that he has touched in just 7 months. He had a way of bringing people together. He certainly never met a stranger.
Again, Thank you to the students who took a lot off our plate and everyone who has helped them as well as rallied around us.
  • Jennifer Grant Absolutely beautiful. Thinking and praying for all of you often.
  • Lisa Vann Gusty I remembered that game! That day was a glorious day of triump and teamwork. Jared was a great kid! Thank you for all your continue to post....I am enjoying all of them with tears in my eyes. Love to you and your family!
  • Candas Roberts Just love the speech. Love your courage and strength. Praying for healing and more strength for the days and weeks to come.
  • Paula Rose Like so many others, it is so difficult to read your beautiful posts as the tears are streaming down face. I have to stop, refocus and start again,something you have had to do often the last few days. My sweetest memory of Jared is the night you brought him trick or treating and he took my hands in his and kissed them, he was just a little tyke. So precious and so loved and well taught by you.Debbie, you have been his strength, his teacher, his biggest fan and most of all the loving mother he deserved.God Bless You.
  • Christina Maxson Debbie, you are amazing. Your posts are beautiful. I can not imagine the pain you are experiencing, but I wanted you to know that your stories and posts are absolutely amazing, and your strength is remarkable. I, like Lisa, find myself reading your posts with tears in my eyes, but truly appreciate you sharing all of these amazing memories of your son.
  • Tracie Vaughn-Glick Debbie Martin, I commend you on the way you have handled everything....you are not hiding from anyone or anything, you are talking about it, the tough times, the happy memories, you are celebrating your sons life, and I have found over the years that is the ultimate way to heal from loosing someone. God Bless!
  • Dana Bone Bandy Wonderful words spoken. Praying for comfort and a peacefulness for your family everyday.
  • Colleen Carley Words cannot express how much I admire you, having lost a brother in such a tragic way when he was 18 I only wished we had shared his life and accomplishments in such a way. He was also a good soccer (football) player and well loved by many. My heart goes out to all of you in St Croix as well as Tennessee and here in Illinois. Keep the beautiful memories alive. Xxxx
  • Cori Porter You continue to be such a brave Mama!!! Jared was so blessed for you to have been picked to be his Mother! Keep talking to him !!
  • Angel DeOrnellas Cambridge You are truly an inspiration..it is so apparent how much love and admiration everyone has for Jared. I hope the thoughts and prayers continue to bring you comfort.
  • Steve Bliven Well said Deb..just awesome...
  • Sandra Copeland Fenton Debbie I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am. My heart goes out to you as I wipe my tears away. Although I never had the honor of meeting Jared but I feel I haven't gotten to know Jared some as well as to know you better. I know you were one terrific Mother. Just wish I could ease your pain. You are and will continue to be in my thoughts and my prayers.
  • Paul Fish Outstanding. Real courage and real truth
  • Marie Spafford Perfect Debbie.
  • Karen Segelhorst Paseur What an amazing mom you are, Jared knew how much you loved him, he will keep you going when you don't have the energy to move. Praying for all your family during this very difficult time

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