As parents we lose our identity and become known as someone's mom or someone's dad. I was blessed for 17 years to be Jared's Mom. Another job of mom is to fix everything that is wrong. Opening juice boxes, for the toddler kissing the boo boo, putting the wheel back on the truck after he decided they needed to be rotated. As he grew it was where is my shirt, shoes, I need posterboard for a project due tomorrow. Then when he started driving it was mom I just had an accident and the jeep is hanging from a tree over the bluff. Yep you probably have the same mental picture I did. I was the one he called when he needed something because Mom fixed it all. I have been next to him in the hospital at 2 years old fighting Rotavirus, with him in the ER getting stitches from playing. .... twice. Giggled with him as he went through a serious concussion and he thought it was fun being wheeled down the hall. I sat beside him all night in the ER as he had rocks picked from his wounds from his accident in April.
Jared suffered from s broken heart. He reached out for help to fix it. We had been working on fixing it with the help of a wonderful doctor. Unfortunately, it couldn't be treated with medicine or surgery not even momma could fix it.Jared Martin got a trait from me that I wish he hadn't. That is he was stubborn as hell. When he made his mind up there was no changing it. In the end he again reached to mom to take care of him. I have struggled with that but tonight I am at peace with it. In fact I am privileged to be Jared's Mom taking care of his wishes the way he wants, standing up for what he wanted even though it isn't what a few of his family members want. I have reminded a few people the last few days that his services and arrangements are what Jared wants and when we come together I hope everyone remembers that. Jared wanted to have a part of him with his dad and he took care of that part and he requested the other part of him was with me wherever I may be.
As I said the other day I would answer questions as I could. So I hope this helps you understand the whys of his choices.
To his teen friends:
Reach out for help when you are hurting. Your parents are always there to help. Suicide is NOT the answer EVER! In the upcoming events we are celebrating the friendships he brought together.
Jared suffered from s broken heart. He reached out for help to fix it. We had been working on fixing it with the help of a wonderful doctor. Unfortunately, it couldn't be treated with medicine or surgery not even momma could fix it.Jared Martin got a trait from me that I wish he hadn't. That is he was stubborn as hell. When he made his mind up there was no changing it. In the end he again reached to mom to take care of him. I have struggled with that but tonight I am at peace with it. In fact I am privileged to be Jared's Mom taking care of his wishes the way he wants, standing up for what he wanted even though it isn't what a few of his family members want. I have reminded a few people the last few days that his services and arrangements are what Jared wants and when we come together I hope everyone remembers that. Jared wanted to have a part of him with his dad and he took care of that part and he requested the other part of him was with me wherever I may be.
As I said the other day I would answer questions as I could. So I hope this helps you understand the whys of his choices.
To his teen friends:
Reach out for help when you are hurting. Your parents are always there to help. Suicide is NOT the answer EVER! In the upcoming events we are celebrating the friendships he brought together.
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