Keepers

Tomorrow our Keepers from Harpeth High School head to the Tennessee State Capitol to talk with whatever law makers will listen to them about suicide prevention.  They have the focus of prevention with teens.  There have been so many obstacles placed in the path of these young adults and yet, together we have moved each one.  One of the things I really thought about today was how, with all that has been placed in front of them, they NEVER gave up!  They even are the ones saying, things will be great tomorrow and we will make them listen.  I don't doubt that.

I want to thank Tennessee Senator Kerry Roberts and his wife Dianne for reaching out and giving the Keepers special time with him tomorrow.

The other night a friend of mine sent me a video of her small child chanting: go momma go momma go momma go.  He chanted over and over.  She said she believes this is what Jared was saying to me in heaven.  I have to agree.  I think, as he always did, momma I need you to fix this, he fixed all the road blocks placed in front of us.
I belong to a private group on Facebook who are Mothers that have lost a child.  Most of them to suicide but all with a loss of child.  Tonight a post came across of a mother screaming, what I scream so often, I WANT MY BABY BACK!  Oh how I want my baby back.  I also have to remember at those times, he is right here beside me.  He is so near to me all the time.  In fact I feel his hugs and touches many times.

To say the past few days have been a roller coaster is an understatement but for completely different reasons than I usually sit on this unwanted ride.

I am having to evaluate many things right now.  I will share those as time goes by.

All is good with Rich and I and we are making more time for things that can be shared together, if even just dinner at a new location.  Sometimes you have a choice when tragedy strikes, pull tight to those who love you most, or isolate yourself and push them away.  I knew my choice in the beginning and made sure I did not push him away.

Zoe is being a normal puppy and pushing all the boundaries she can.  She also brings lots of smiles and laughter to this house that is much needed.

I hope you all have a very blessed day.