I Would Die For You

What a romantic notion that you would love someone so much you would die top save them. Our military know there is a chance they could lose their life for a cause they believe in.
Our emergency service workers know the risk they take each day.
But what about you?   With the wonderful developments of the past couple of days, I have really been thinking about this topic. I see comments about suicide and how those who die by suicide are weak or they are taking the easy way out or how they made their bed they should lie in it. Well I can't bring myself to be angry at those comments. In fact I once shared some of those thoughts but I was uneducated,  ignorant on the topic. Here is some truth about suicide that many people don't think about. Did you know most intentional suicides are in fact to protect those they love?  Don't feel bad if you didn't know that most people don't. Those that die by suicide are in such pain they want it to stop and they don't want pain to be inflicted on their loved ones. Unfortunately,  They don't think far enough past the short term to realize the eternal pain brought on by suicide. So they die for you,  and me.  
Jared died to protect me from pain that was getting ready to take place and he simply want equipped to know how to divert that pain from happening.   I feel a ton of guilt about that every day. I know I did all I could for him but I feel it should have, could have been more.   My job was to make sure he wasn't in pain.   He was protecting me!  I recently spoke to someone who said they struggle with guilt from their days in the military. A buddy died because he was protecting him.   He had carried this guilt for years.   That is when it really clicked with me why I have been having extreme grief attacks lately.   It is guilt creeping in.  
Yesterday was such am amazing day for me to watch take place.   Young adults took to the Tennessee State Capitol and made legislators listen. With grace,  professionalism,  and maturity they got the attention on a wonderful senator who had asked them to help him write legislation for the next session.  
I know Jared and many others had a hand in yesterdays events.   I know there are hundreds of young Angels who are cheering and celebrating in heaven because these teens are talking about the taboo subject of suicide.  
I challenged those students in June of 2014 to help me stop suicide and they took that seriously.   No one likes talking about suicide,  myself included,  but I will talk about it continuously until we can remove the word from the dictionary because it is no longer needed.