Reflextions

I sit here tonight reflecting on the past six months.  Six months ago today I had my son, six months ago tomorrow, 4 hours fom now, I didn't have my son on earth any longer.  It SUCKS beyond belief, beyond comprehention.  While I have family and friends supporting me it sucks and I feel alone on a deserted island.  I want to cry endlessly.  Why? Just because I do.  Oh God, my only wish is that you will send him back to me on earth, You can do anything, please do this miracle and show everyone you are real, make them believe too.